huhuu..serabut..penat..

2nd entry.
just got home from the campus. promised dell i'll get her some books for her new posting. went to change the car's batt as well. i was praying i wouldn't have to change it now, but the level was showing 'defective' when the battery uncle guy checked just now. not good. not good. so there goes my another few hundred ringgit..huhuu..sedey..but it's ok la i guess..since walid had promised to pay me back later. i've been using the car for almost 2 years now. but have never done any 'tending' job regarding her. hahaa..everytime there's a problem, i'll send it away to walid, or abang, or khali asan..hehehe..but now that i'm away from everyone..i have to get it done myself..nak cari kedai mana nak berhenti tadi pun took me almost half an hour to decide. dok pusing berkali2 kat jalan yg same..hehh..takpela..amatur lagi..

skrg ni tgh dok pening..dgn IMS nye nak kne siapkan b4 the end of the week, dgn CFCS report n presentation yg bayang2 ke'siap'annye pun tak nampak2 lagi..dgn research lagi.. n final xm yg makin lama makin dekat..huhuu..aku tak tau laaa....it's like a super huge stampede rushing towards me n i can't seem to run fast enough to get away..entahlaaa..ape la nak jadi ngan aku nie..sometimes i wish i could get my work done faster.. aku ni klu buat keje mmg gear 2 je..tak reti speed2..one of the big reason why all my workloads got jumbled up all the time. haha..padan muka dgn diri sendiri..

sometimes i feel like i'd be better off if i hadn't pick this road for my journey..tapi bak kater Dr. shiela, i may still be able to retreat from this battle earlier on, but now that i've reached this point..i'm already too far in to turn back.. takpelah. just grit my teeth now walk through everything je la..as if i have any other choice now. hehh..not that i'm regretting it so much pun..it's just that..biler dok stress2 cam ni la, these stupid thoughts dok dtg balik. n haha..dell n dija will be coming back tmrw..hehe..bole la tuntut hadiah harijadi aritue..muehehe..gelak keji..

and haa..speaking of hadiah harijadi..i've received a parcel from err..tempat yg agak jauh la a few days back. it was quite a shock for me when i saw it. actually parcel tu sampai lame dah..tapi i was not at home when it arrived,. salah aku gak le, i've received the notification slip yg suh aku pi amik parcel tu kat post office, tapi aku igt that was for the parcel whom walid sent me earlier which i've already received, so aku ignore je la..to be honest, i was touched by the gift, and the some of the words written on the card, but at the same time.. aku raser berserabut jugak, dan confuse... ntahlaa.. biarle nak jadi apa pun.. Allah will decide what's best for me. =)