i longed for this..but in a different way.

aarrgghh...so many things happened today..tatau nak tulis yg mana satu dulu..i was longing for today, but it turned out blistering, heh. ape2 jela.. first thing first.

memula sekali, i'm glad that ims is done. happy ending. it went pretty well, atau sepatutnya aku kata, it went out too well..considering that esha gupta was the lecturer in charge. when i first found out yg aku kne buat ims under her, my heart sank. raser mcm dunia dah terbalik. that will be the end of me. habihlaaa....tapi the worst never came, sbb surprisingly, she turned out to be so understanding and.....kind.-->(payahnye aku nak type perkataan ni) frankly speaking, she has never been in my favourite list of lecturers..for as long as aku bole avoid dier, i would. tapi surprisingly enough (i had to repeat this), dier dok tolong dgn kitorg punyer presentation..mmg habih enthusiastic laa dgn presentation kitorg nih. betulkan every nook and cranny, let us know the do's and don'ts..mmg aku sgt2 appreciate..kes yg susah pun jadi crystal clear. pastu siap dtg awal time presentation. habih lak on time. and she was very supportive thru out the whole presentation..takde nak bantai2 kitorg atau apape, unlike before..siap tolong backing lak tuh..giler berbeza from the previous her that i used to know..ape2pun, i'm grateful. 3 malam tak cukup tdo..3 hari tak lunch..haha..it's all well paid.

pastu..abih seminar, ader presentation pbl lak..giler la..2 presentation in a day. dah la tajuk yg hampeh aku tak suke. substance abuse. sgt dry. mmg sumer org dok ptosis je thru out the presentation. i just couldn't care less..janji abih, boleh balik rumah cepat. nasib baik dgn dr philip je. hehehe..amik kesempatan la, apelagi..

abih je class, bawak ann gi sp..dier sibuk nak gi guardian carik ape ntah..then ternampak la 'siam fair' ke 'thai fair' ke ape ntah kat atrium sp tuh.. byk kedai warna warni..baju2..beg2..trinkets sumer..kitorg sbg perempuan dah tak berdaya melawan penangan estrogen, huhuu..dgn tak sengaja termelayang beberapa keping note kaler merah..huhu..masing2 dok kata..'u beli la..kalau u beli. i beli jugak..' hehehe.. padahal msg2 mmg tgh kering..haha..kira psychosocial therapy la nih..post traumatic event. nak recuperate dgn baik.

n then tadi gi anta miha balik kb..dgn dell n dija n bal. huhuu..dah lama tak kuar beramai2..jumpe adik baby n umar n abe of miha's. agak best le..then on the way balik..dja dok korek citer from bal abt the events that's been happening in the past few weeks..and..entahla..cakap terus-terang, i'm not a 'gossiper'..aku tak suke bergossip pasal org lain, sbb end result dier sentiasa adalah finding out the worst part of other people yg i'd rather not know. tapi mmg dah naluri kot..klu org dah start bercakap..u can't help but nak tahu jugak..enquisitive instict, hehh. n that was what i had done pun la..tp tula.. hmfph..if only i hadn't been listening.

n time class td, tetiba terbukak cerita pasal one my ever beloved heartthrob, jonathan brandis. and surprisingly, none of my classmates kenal jonathan brandis..??!! penat aku try explain, takde org pun yg igt/kenal..mcm tak caye je..?? realizing yg aku dah lamer giler tak dgr citer pasal dier, aku pun balik umah n hit the net. n what i found was way beyond words. sedih. dah hampir 3 tahun, and i never knew. check this site http://www.eonline.com/News/Items/0,1,12990,00.html?tnews and thishttp://www.jonathanbrandis.org/ ..aku mmg jarang jugak minat mana2 pelakon gegiler..he was one of the rare people that used to haunt my days during my school years. hmmpfh. it was a sad day indeed.



~in memory~JB